First Love...

When was the first time you fell in love? Was it when you're 5 or sweet 16? Or was it when you grew wiser at the age of 20's?

I've been thinking and looking back trying to figure out when or who was my first love.. It's funny how I could think all the boys and men I've dated and even when I thought I was in love, I realized now that many of the case I wasn't.

I could say though, there are three guys who had shaped my love life; my ex, Soul Surfer, another ex Party Boy and my hubby JT.

I briefly talked about Soul Surfer a long time ago, but anyway.. I met Soul Surfer when I was 20, right before I turned 21. It was love at first sight. I went out one night with my friends to a bar called "Pink Cadillac" in Waikiki. He was working as a bouncer. I walked in when he was counting $$ and a cigarett in his mouth. He was gorgeous. I couldn't stop thinking about him all night and the morning after and the next day. So I went back to the bar, hoping to see him and there he was. Believe it or not, I decided that I was going to be his girlfriend right then(hmmm, kida creepy if you think about it. Boarderline stalker activity. LOL).

Luckily, one of my friends knew him, so we started hanging out as friends first and we stared dating six months after. But his true love was surfing. He blew off our date so many times without calling and having me wait by the phone. Every time I called him to find out where he was, his roommate told me, "He is surfing." It's funny how I got used to it. If I could place myself in his priority list, I could say that Surfing (1st place), Friends (2nd) and Maki (3rd place!!). But I loved him and adored him otherwise I wouldn't stayed with him for five years. He loved nature, the ocean and surfing, all the things I love. Anyway, you can read my old post to see what happened with Soul Surfer

After the breakup with Soul Surfer, I met Party Boy and dated for six months. And I could say, he totally broke my heart. We met at a party, he liked me, he got my number and the next thing I know, we were dating intensely. He did so many things that Soul Surfer barely did for me or with me. Party Boy wanted to spend every single minute with me. And we even talked about getting married (yes, he was that special). But do you ever feel when you're so much in love and things were going great, somehow you start to think things might go wrong or thinking, "This can't be true?" - well, that's exactly what happened. All the fun times and good times fell apart when I started to feel insecure. We brokeup the day after my birthday. I was a wreck!! I was depressed and cried everyday. I couldn't go on anymore without him and I was sure I was not going to find anyone who would put a smile on my face. It was one of the most horrible time of my life.

That's when I met JT. It was not love at first sight, but I remember thinking "ummm, he is handsome.." We saw each other every time I went out for drinks. We became good friends. JT was the one who saved me from being sad everyday after Party Boy. I stopped thinking about Party Boy when I was with JT. I started to feel that I can smile and be happy again.

When I was with JT, I never had to worry if he cared about me. He was not afraid to show his affection. I could honestly say that he was the first man ever that I knew in my heart he'd always be faithful to me. I could be a bit too much and kind of clingy at times, but JT was man enough to embraced me with open arms and never ran away from it. Although JT and I have gone through A LOT (for those of you reading my blog for the first time, read here to know about me and JT), I still feel that I'm lucky gal to have the man who loves me deeply. I love him so much...

So my friends, please tell me: Who is your first love?? Are you with him/her right now? What is first love to you; is it something you had when you are young or when you truly fell for someone when you're more mature and older?

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