Wednesday, October 15, 2008

First Love...


When was the first time you fell in love? Was it when you're 5 or sweet 16? Or was it when you grew wiser at the age of 20's?

I've been thinking and looking back trying to figure out when or who was my first love.. It's funny how I could think all the boys and men I've dated and even when I thought I was in love, I realized now that many of the case I wasn't.

I could say though, there are three guys who had shaped my love life; my ex, Soul Surfer, another ex Party Boy and my hubby JT.

I briefly talked about Soul Surfer a long time ago, but anyway.. I met Soul Surfer when I was 20, right before I turned 21. It was love at first sight. I went out one night with my friends to a bar called "Pink Cadillac" in Waikiki. He was working as a bouncer. I walked in when he was counting $$ and a cigarett in his mouth. He was gorgeous. I couldn't stop thinking about him all night and the morning after and the next day. So I went back to the bar, hoping to see him and there he was. Believe it or not, I decided that I was going to be his girlfriend right then(hmmm, kida creepy if you think about it. Boarderline stalker activity. LOL).

Luckily, one of my friends knew him, so we started hanging out as friends first and we stared dating six months after. But his true love was surfing. He blew off our date so many times without calling and having me wait by the phone. Every time I called him to find out where he was, his roommate told me, "He is surfing." It's funny how I got used to it. If I could place myself in his priority list, I could say that Surfing (1st place), Friends (2nd) and Maki (3rd place!!). But I loved him and adored him otherwise I wouldn't stayed with him for five years. He loved nature, the ocean and surfing, all the things I love. Anyway, you can read my old post to see what happened with Soul Surfer

After the breakup with Soul Surfer, I met Party Boy and dated for six months. And I could say, he totally broke my heart. We met at a party, he liked me, he got my number and the next thing I know, we were dating intensely. He did so many things that Soul Surfer barely did for me or with me. Party Boy wanted to spend every single minute with me. And we even talked about getting married (yes, he was that special). But do you ever feel when you're so much in love and things were going great, somehow you start to think things might go wrong or thinking, "This can't be true?" - well, that's exactly what happened. All the fun times and good times fell apart when I started to feel insecure. We brokeup the day after my birthday. I was a wreck!! I was depressed and cried everyday. I couldn't go on anymore without him and I was sure I was not going to find anyone who would put a smile on my face. It was one of the most horrible time of my life.
That's when I met JT. It was not love at first sight, but I remember thinking "ummm, he is handsome.." We saw each other every time I went out for drinks. We became good friends. JT was the one who saved me from being sad everyday after Party Boy. I stopped thinking about Party Boy when I was with JT. I started to feel that I can smile and be happy again.

When I was with JT, I never had to worry if he cared about me. He was not afraid to show his affection. I could honestly say that he was the first man ever that I knew in my heart he'd always be faithful to me. I could be a bit too much and kind of clingy at times, but JT was man enough to embraced me with open arms and never ran away from it. Although JT and I have gone through A LOT (for those of you reading my blog for the first time, read here to know about me and JT), I still feel that I'm lucky gal to have the man who loves me deeply. I love him so much...

So my friends, please tell me: Who is your first love?? Are you with him/her right now? What is first love to you; is it something you had when you are young or when you truly fell for someone when you're more mature and older?

PS: Don't forget to enter for Pay It Forward contest; deadline is tomorrow!


MJ said...

Actually, my first love was who I'm with now! :)

We dated way back when I was 16. He was an older guy and so sweet, I instantly fell for him. But over the summer I had decided that I was too young to be stuck to any one person, and we broke up.

I had one long relationship after that after that, thought I was in love even. But turns out that guy was a jerk underneath it all. The cop and I reconnected in college. And he was really there for me after my nasty breakup with the other guy. We started dating a few months after that. It's been perfect ever since - my own fairytale...

colbymarshall said...

I married my high school sweetheart, who IS still my first love :-)

Franco said...

mt first crush was this gal named jessica during 5th grade, I think, was lame.
I'm 18 and never fallen in love.
I'm a loner.

Alev said...

Haven't had anyone in my life really.

Jess said...

I haven't ever been in love.
I have plenty of time though.
Loved hearing about your relationships. I love peoples historys. Surfer dude sounds cool! Maegan said...

ugh, I had a break-up like seven days after my birthday was horrendous and lame. I have to say that what I thought was love in the past did not compare to what I have with my husband now. True love is different.

merc3069 said...

I broke up with my first love because I had gone away to college and he came late for a date. In reality, I was 18 and stupid, not able to appreciate someone who respected me and never pressured me for sex.
After kissing frogs for a few years, I met my husband when I was 21. Although things have been rocky lately, I mostly do not regret a moment.

Anna Lefler said...

Great blog! Can't wait to read more of your posts...

Thanks for stopping by "my place." Isn't SITS amazing?

Take care and have a great day...

:^) Anna

CL said...

Thanks for the wishes you left in my blog.

You write well. Keep on blogging!

My affair with my first love ended pretty badly, it left me with a big scar. But now I'm with the love of my life and I couldn't be happier!

Maki said...

mj: It is soo nice to hear all these beautiful love stories like yourself. The cop and you belong together!! I am so happy for you both -- one of the best fairytale!!

colby: How sweet is it to be able to marry high school sweetheart!? You and you hubby are one of the lucky ones who have made it through - that's sooo great!!!

franco: You are still young - you'll find someone eventually who takes your breath away!!

alev: You and franco are the same; very young and full of dreams. Stay the way you are!!

Jess: Surfer dude is a cool guy now. He really changed and became a good man. I am glad you enjoyed the story:D

Maegan: I know it's so hard and lame to have breakup before/after the birthday. It sucked!! But I know you're so much in love and happy. True love - that's awesome!!

merc3069: Yes, I was very young, too and thought I knew it all!! But we learn from our past and mistakes, right? I hope you're feeling better, my friend:)

anna: Thanks so much for stopping by! I love your profile pic:D I'm happy to know that you enjoyed my post. Yes, let's stay in touch!!!

cl: Thanks for commenting back:) Yeah, usually first love gives you the biggest scar. But it'd heal and give you another try for new love which would be stronger and better. Congrats again!

BakerGirl said...

My first love in high school was all consuming. Too consuming. I had a bad breakup in college I haven't decided if there was love in that relationship.

The guy I'm with now is a different kind of love. We met at the end of my college years. We are independent and yet together. It's a comfortable kind of love in a relationship that I have never experienced before. In may we will have been together for two years... I don't know where the last year and some went! It has all gone by so fast!

Dorkys R. said...

I've only had one boyfriend and I consider him to be my first love. We were friends during our year at grad school, secretly liked each other and never told the other until we both left school. A month or so later we started dating long distance. He was amazing, sweet, affectionate, all the things I thought I'd prob never find. We were together for a year and a half and we talked about marraige, kids, living together, absolutely everything. Unfortunately I was also scared and anxious it'd one day end because it was so good.

After a while that took a toll on the relationship as well as family problems I was having. We were thisclose to moving in together this past january but then decided to hold off on it until we fixed some things.

A month later, on valentine's day, he and I broke up. And I'm still not over it. We still talk and still want to be a part of each other's lives, but sometimes it's too hard for me. I can't not talk to him and when I do it hurts. I still cry about it :(

Poetica said...

awww i love your blog, it is so cute

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