What Would You Do?

Do you ever get so nervous that you almost want to puke??? Well, yesterday was one of those days for me.

I went to work as usual and everything was honky dori. Everyone at work was happy and it was Friday, of course we were happy..

We have this turn sheet that shows the next nail tech's turn when a customer walks in without appointment. It is fairly easy to use once you learn and get used to how to write it down, but if you miswrite someone's turn, it's like a domino effect; everything and everyone's turn gets messed up. It took me two months until my boss was comfortable for me to handle this turn sheet.

Anyway, I took over my co-worker who went home and I was doing the sheet. I was thinking to myself, "Man, Maki is so smart. I'm getting it and doing it." WRONG! The thing I didn't realize was that my co-worker C, forgot to write down two techs before she left who just started working on clients, but I kept on going. It's my fault, too, that I totally assumed she wrote down before she went home, but it was not really my mistake. Soon enough, one of my bosses realize that the turn sheet was all messed up.

I could totally tell my boss was annoyed (well, she's been really in a pissy mood for the past week or so), that's when Maki's downfall (emotional) began.

It definitely comes from my old childhood experience that I get really REALLY nervous once I make a mistake, so I start to freeze. Once I freeze, then my performance starts to detoriate. It was just a small mistake, but I can't stand myself of making mistakes, especially when this is such an easy job.

My heart was pounding and started to sweat a lot. It was not a big deal really, my other boss was smiling and fixed the problem without saying anything. But I have to tell you, my anxiety level was so high that I started to feel like throwing up. I didn't have to be so nervous, but I had to leave the salon to the outside for a minute or two... I took a couple of deep breath and went back in. Things were back to normal after awhile, but I was totally losing my mind!!

After I came home, I told my husband about what happened today.

JT: So, did you tell them C forgot to write it down?
Me: No...
JT: Why? Why didn't you explain to them it wasn't {fully} your fault?
Me: Because... I felt like if I did that, I was blaming on C and not taking any responsibility? You know the ones always blame others? I didn't want to be that person.
JT: But they would think that you made the mistake. If you don't stand up for yourself, you'll lose your job, you know that?
Me: Oh C'mon, it wasn't that big of a deal!
JT: Maybe, but what if the same thing happens again? Then what? If you don't tell your boss that you didn't make the mistake, they would think that you're the one who keep messing it up over and over again.. Right?
Me: Ahem.... I guess so? But C is working there longer than me. I feel like they assume C wouldn't make any mistake.
JT: Exactly my point! That is why you have to stand up for yourself.

So, everybody, what would you do if you're in my shoes? Would you tell your boss that the initial mistake wasn't yours? Or do you just nod, say "sorry" and let them think whatever they want without mentioning about your co-worker's mistake?

Also, what are your tactics when you make mistakes at work; what do you do to calm your nervous level?

So, you know when you are having a "I almost wanna puke" kinda bad day? Something good will happen! You receive an award! The lovely Tara over @ The Watermelon Treegave me a new award! Yay for me! I've always wanted this award because it is so lovely!!! I don't know why, but receiving award gives me a pure joy! Tara is also throwing a cute giveaway, so you make sure to check her out!

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An Extended Vacation
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I hope you're having a lovely weekend!!!