Sunday, April 11, 2010

Stop This Train...

I hope you had a lovely weekend..

For the past few days or so, I've been feeling overwhelmed.
I definitely think this is because of PMS or something along the line, but oh boy, I've had a good cry or two because I just couldn't hold it in.
I work as a receptionist part time and one of my jobs of course is to book a new appointments for clients. Every time when I book a new appointment, we're talking about the next month when the new month's just begun. I can't catch up with the speed, how fast my life is going.
I've talked about this many, many times before, but it's scaring me...
My kids are only getting bigger every day and I'm only getting older. And when I stop to think, I've been in the same place and nothing has changed.
My mom always says it's a baby step... Life is all about the baby step.
But I don't know.., I just don't know how to take a deep breath and look forward to my future because all I want right now is for the time and my life to slow down and not going any faster...
I love John Mayer (regardless of his reputation) and his song "Stop This Train" speaks my mind. I really feel like I want to push the emergency break and stop it.
Do you ever feel the same, my darlings?
"Stop This Train"

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

(think I got 'em now)


Twincerely,Olga said...

stopping by from SITS!!! beautiful post!!! congrats on being #1!!!!

Erin Bassett said...

I can totally relate to the overwhelmed & life speeding by parts of your post...I'm feeling the same way lately. Chin up!

the southern hostess said...

I know the feeling and I love that song too. Glad I found your blog!

Natalie | The Bobby Pin said...

I am totally overwhelmed right now, this was wonderful to read. Today was a wash. I did nothing. Oh well!

photojoy said...

I know how you feel. Time went so fast! Children grew sooo fast. Now I want to believe aging is not so bad as I am afraid of. My husband is aging as well. There should be something more for us to live up our own life. Thank you for sharing this with us. Have a nice week!

Mary K Brennan said...

Perfect song to help explain the situation.
I'm going through s similar slope right now.
The one thing I've learned is that only we have the power to make change happen. We can't slow down time, but we can make every minute count.
Enjoy the ride!

Elisa, Croatia said...

I hear you, my daughter is turning two this weekend and I would like to freeze time, But then I have seen her grow and I can see her personality shining through that I say ok I want to see more.

Nice song you chose. For my younger sister, who recently had a baby, she was feeling overwhelmed with now having ther 3rd kid, then she went to the doctor and she had a wake-up a call. She tells me she really wants to live life to the fullest. I agree and we just have to remind ourselves on a daily basis that life is precious. I can't wait to meet my youngest nephew.

Hope you had a wonderful weekend. Happy Monday!


AndreaLeigh said...

Just stopping by from SITS!

I get what you are saying. My son turns 3 months old this week and I just want to stop time! I was looking at birth pictures last week and I can't believe how much he's changed.

Babs said...

Specially since Bibs is born I think. When you become mum, time has a completely different dimension, every thing gravitates around her and when I think back it's always around how old she was. It's like a wake up call! but a late one lol

Embraced Chaos said...

Stopping by from SITS. I love how you expressed this. I think so many time women feel this way, but no one talks about it. We always have to put on a happy face. Thanks for this lovely blog.

Jasara said...

so true. kids make life go faster, I've found. next thing you know, they are out in the world trying to live their dream. my boys are still my babies. BABIES. Even tho the oldest is taller than me and my middle is working his way to my height.. where does the time go?

Jessica (Bayjb) said...

Aww I'm sorry to hear you've been crying and feeling overwhelmed! You're an amazing mom and those girls are so lucky to have you. You'll get your footing again.

Dionne said...

Time flies, but thankfully you are a a strong woman - i know you can handle anything that comes your way.

Maki said...

Girlies: Thanks so much for all of your kind comments and word of encouragement. I'm kind of relieved to know that I'm not the only one who's feeling the pressure. xoxo

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