Stop This Train...

I hope you had a lovely weekend..

For the past few days or so, I've been feeling overwhelmed.

I definitely think this is because of PMS or something along the line, but oh boy, I've had a good cry or two because I just couldn't hold it in.

I work as a receptionist part time and one of my jobs of course is to book a new appointments for clients. Every time when I book a new appointment, we're talking about the next month when the new month's just begun. I can't catch up with the speed, how fast my life is going.

I've talked about this many, many times before, but it's scaring me...

My kids are only getting bigger every day and I'm only getting older. And when I stop to think, I've been in the same place and nothing has changed.

My mom always says it's a baby step... Life is all about the baby step.

But I don't know.., I just don't know how to take a deep breath and look forward to my future because all I want right now is for the time and my life to slow down and not going any faster...

I love John Mayer (regardless of his reputation) and his song "Stop This Train" speaks my mind. I really feel like I want to push the emergency break and stop it.

Do you ever feel the same, my darlings?

"Stop This Train"

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

(think I got 'em now)