Hello my dearlies - how have you been? Are you enjoying the nice fall weather? I woke up this morning with coooool breeze - It's 65 degree out! When the temprature gets so crazy hot during summer, I always think FL doesn't get to see nice fall weather, but it came rather quickly - it sneaked up on us! But it's so nice to be able to open the windows and turn off AC and smell the crisp air outside..Anyways, as you know, I've been slacking on posting - what a hay, that hasn't changed for the past 12 months actually. I always say that I'm feeling the weird funk, ja, ja... But I know it's more than just a funk.
I started this blog over two and a half years ago because I love to write. I love to write about my family or my friends, or current events or Hollywood. For the first six months, I posted on daily basis and I know I really loved getting all kinds of comments - there were times I got over 30 comments! I have so many things to say about life and sharing about it with you have been my true joy.
Over the course of two years though, things had happened and I sort of lost the mojo or should I say the passion for this blog. What happened was that one of my family member was reading my blog without telling me and it had sparked a full blown debate in the family circle.
I don't want to get in to it, but when I have to censor my own posting or need to be careful about what I would write in my own blog, that beomes hard. I've never bad mouth my family members in my blog nor talked negatively about my friends and family, but I have to make sure not to say too much about them.
My blog is not a fashion blog - My blog is my diary and talk about my daily joy and struggle that I go through every day. If I have to exclude the events that happen in my life which includes my family, then my point of this blog becomes half important. I have struggled to find a way to write it because a lot of times, my life becomes comical when I have dinner with my in-laws or go out with them, but I have to second guess everything that I want to write.
My family members know about my blog now and they tell me they don't care, but really, I'm still struggling to find the mutural ground to entertain my lovely blogging friends and sustain the integrity of my family and friends.
This month is my birthday month, so there are many things that I want to figure out : My life, the future of this blog, my business. I think I'm going to be very busy, but I really want to post a lot more than recent.
Oh by the way, my last day at work was last week and I officially started my career as a full time artist!! Um, it's kind of nerve wracking!
Hope you're having a lovely week! xoxo
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Maki! Keep the blog! I love reading about your life. And most especially now that you're a full-time artist - I am sure you'll be overflowing with creative inspiration.
But I totally understand that you don't want to offend your family - but all the same, I will miss you if you decide to quit blogging!
Thanks for updating us! Sorry to hear about your blogging problems, I hope you can find some middle ground!
Oh Maki, I know exactly what you are talking about. I kinda wish I would never have told my family about it. It makes things more complicated.
I too have lost my mojo! It is very hard to get it back. I feel like I used to be more funny/open/straight forward/ interesting and lately I jsut feel blah, blah, blah!
I hope you will do what is best for you & your family with everything.
I will still be here when you want to come back to blogland ;)
aw, maki!!! i hope you keep your blog. i always find myself sensoring stuff too but it's still such a great outlet.
good luck on your full time artistic journey :)
Oh girl we definitely need to talk. I've had the same family issue and it's been really, really bad. I understand exactly how you feel. I hope you do continue but do it on your terms and make this what you want it to be, regardless of others.
I'm so sorry for your struggle. I hope you're able to find the balance you're looking for!
Dionne: Aw thank you so much! I do want to keep blogging - no doubt! I just have to find a way to find a joy doing it again:) Love you!
Kristin: I really hope I can find the middle ground! xoxo
Carrin: Exactly my point! I used to be alot more funny/open/straight forward, too. It sucks not being able to get the mojo back, huh? You're one of my oldest reader and I value our friendship - thank you so much! Love!
eri: I hope I can keep blogging, too!!! Let's see if I can make my blog fun again! xoxoxo
Jess: I do remember you're talking about it in your post - I def would love to chat with you about it.. xi
Kristin: I hope so too - thanks sweetie! xoxo
Hi sweet girl - I am sorry for your struggle and know just how you feel. I always think you can't go wrong when you're being true to yourself. Your family will get tired of nagging you and you'll still have your outlet. Hang in there and I hope things are going great in your business so far!!
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